Unreachable.

Monday, September 24, 2012 , , , , , 0 Comments

Today, at office, my colleague was playing Jay's songs.
Everytime I listen to Jay's songs, I will think about him.
We share the same memory with Jay's songs.
Sometimes, I still wish to know how is he, even though I have made up my mind that I will forget him and never to get in touch with him.
He is a memory for me. Just like the way he treated me.

I used to be proud when people is asking me, how long you been together with your bf?
How you two will get together? What is the secret of how you two been so sweet all the while?
But, not now anymore.

It's not because I have lose faith with our love.
It's not because I don't love him or he don't love me anymore.
Just that, people only see the appearance, what is actually happen between us, they don't even know it.

I always envy people who gets married, being proposed in a very romantic and sweet way.
I will wish this would happen on me as well, one day, maybe we still together.

To be sincere, I can hardly imagine my future.
I don't know what I will do, who I will become and so many things.
I don't even dare to think about it.
It's like, beautiful things are just too far to reach for me.
Like, unreachable.


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Updates: 19082012

Sunday, August 19, 2012 , , 0 Comments

Maybe I didn't go through any situation before, because my future was set since the day I was born to this world and family.
I felt weird, that I didn't react bad when the time I was treated strict by my mum.
Maybe I was just too obedient already.
Or just maybe I don't have the guts to react or talk back or fight back gua.

From primary school, secondary school, university until now, going out for work.
The path was seem so simple. Yet, is part in the life.
I wondered, how did I make it till now.
Haha, it is like a miracle for me.

Next wednesday, will be a brand new start for me.
New job, new environment and I will need to drive to work.
Well, I hope that I can adapt to it soon and good la, of course I must think in this way.

For you, maybe I didn't know what's on your mind.
Somehow I can know some of feeling. The feeling of wanting to do the things which you like but family is not supporting you at all.
You wish to fight back, but all the outcomes shown that you are wrong in this situation.
What else to hold on?
Wasn't the family meant the most important in life?

Hope He can help you :)

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Updates: 12082012

Sunday, August 12, 2012 , , , , , , , 0 Comments

I thought I could have my own time for resting and doing own stuff after handing in my resignation letter.
But I was wrong, I am still having busy like hell life now.
I think I will going crazy if continue doing projects non-stop like this.

Everytime repeating the same coding, same structure, same word, same layout..
Really feel like, aih, I don't know how to describe it anymore.

I wish my job can cover my expenses, eventhough I think it might cover almost everything,
but still need to do extra, so that I can live my life even better than this.

Our life is, we can't do anything if without money on hand.
So realistic.

Yet, I should be proud with my job.
I can win recognition from my boss, my job provider, my friends.
Feeling good when they praise on me and my work :)
That might comfort my heart well.

It's been one year working in KL.
How's my life?
I can say, just like usual.
We didn't do any special outing, we watch movie once in a couple week.
I did online shopping instead of going out to shopping mall.
It prove, I couldn't live without my pc now.
So miserable. T.T

Ok, well, I am quite look forward for my next job and working environment,
eventhough I might be having busy life after that.
Hopefully I can do as what I can to impress my future boss :)

God bless me and you all as well :)

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Move On

Friday, August 03, 2012 , , , 0 Comments

我看到，有人很想把自己变得更好，比方说，变得更有钱。
为的，只是想让她回心转意。
其实，我不知道应该给什么反应才是最适当的。
我是一个，连说话都会迁就别人的人，我很少会很坚持自己的见解。

我老是对他说，Move On。
也不知道他是不是真的有听进去。
只是到现在为止，我还没有看见他真正的放下。
到底为的是什么呢？
应该没有人知道和了解吧。

如果换作是我自己，又会怎么办？
是不是真的很难放下？

可是如果不放下的话，又要怎么 Move On 呢？

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Glad for you.

Monday, July 23, 2012 , , , 1 Comments

Viewing my friend's photos in Facebook.
She is now in New Zealand, a totally new environment for her. Yet, I feel so happy for her that she seems like adapt quite well at there.

Suddenly, I feel like missing her a lot.
She is one of my close friend in University. We used to go class together, meeting each other in the shuttle bus, being group members, rushing for projects together etc.
It's really a long time didn't meet up with her. But through her photos, I can know how good she is now :)

And she made me have the feeling to go for vacation, or follow her working in New Zealand.
I always hope for a nice and happy vacation. Even though I got no passport on hand, never been to Singapore, never fly with airplane.
Our life now, is busy. Too pack to squeeze out some time to have vacation.

I wish to leave here actually.
Go out and see this world, to see how beautiful it is.
I am just a typical simple girl, who wish to have beautiful memory, before I getting old and couldn't go further.

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19 July.

Thursday, July 19, 2012 , , , , , 0 Comments

I think I should be happy.
Got much job on hand, upcoming one, rushing one, completed one.
I really should feel happy for it.
For the greatness that God brought for me.
Yet, felt tired.

Today was the first time, client called me and rush for me.
Haha, really the very first time. Because I could say, most of the time I will complete the task on time.
Just, everytime after work, just don't feel like working anymore.
Wish to take break, watch drama, facebook-ing etc.
Just do whatever I want.
But, I couldn't lahh.

Did you notice? I just changed my blog skin today, in the office.
Haha, maybe I'm just too free to do so. Or, just want to free my time doing my own stuff.
Don't have much feeling to work in office. Waiting for the last day to come.

Yesterday was the premiere screening of Dark Knight Rises.
I won the tickets, but I cannot attend to it due to RCIA class.
What a pity. But luckily I gave the tickets to my colleague, and he did enjoyed a lot last night :)
And today, he brought me all the merchandise he got that night. So good!
The only one I liked the most among them is the X-mini Capsule Speaker. Most probably the most expensive one among them. LOL.
But anyway, thanks to P1, thanks to Venusbuzz :)

Yesterday class, we talked about who is God? Our Father?
A nice lesson, fulfill my curiosity towards this new religion ;)
Carry on, the day will come.
May God bless you :)

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Very recent.

Friday, July 13, 2012 , , , , 0 Comments

It's like, finally, FINALLY I tender the letter.
First time ever.
Really scare and nervous.
But it is really happy and relief that my colleagues are supporting me from leaving here.
Yea, I am all alone here, working on my own, no one to discuss with, handle project myself, really don't like this kind of working environment.

There is a lot on my mind actually, because there are really lot of things happened recently.
Like, I am start going for the RCIA class, every Tuesday night. Quite tired, coz need to travel after work. And, have to carry on for the rest of 48 weeks.
But I believe, it will pass, very fast.
I felt quite fresh and curious about this new religion too.
Would like to explore much with it, learn from my dear, everyone in the class.
Maybe something just too deep for me to understand, but luckily got dear there to help me answer every question I had. :)

Ok, where will I work later?
Tada, is in Sri Petaling. Ya, no more Taman Desa. Finally I'm out of this place. LOL.
It is an advertising company, I was hired as a web designer. But will be more focus on HTML 5, CSS 3, responsive web design & development and jQuery.
Yes it is really the time for m to polish my skill set on these. I have to become the Sifu at there. LOL.
I hope, I can cope with this well :)

And, I have bought new laptop, ASUS A53SM, nice spec, also quite pricey. Hmm, but for me, it is quite reasonable la. It got what I want ;)

Ok, that's much for the updates so far.
Will continue when got new stuff to share :)
Nite everyone~

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Atmosphere.

Friday, July 06, 2012 , , , 0 Comments

The atmosphere here is full of down. sad. disappointment. anger. frustration.
I wish I could get out from this atmosphere as soon as possible.

Is it every boss out there is used to give dreams to their employees?
But they couldn't fulfill either one of the dreams?!
There's the disappointment of employees.

We put our effort here, yet, some can't get paid, don't have much benefits.
All is like, empty promises.

And now, I started to think and asking myself.
Why I am here? Why I chose to be here when the first decision making time?

I deserve the better working environment.
For sure, it's not here.

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想法.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012 , , 0 Comments


女孩，是不是到了一定的年龄，就会想婚？

我还年轻吧，回想起当初口口声声说不想也不会早婚的我，现在却想了。

好好笑，笑这么笨的自己。

其实，我好想就结婚了，把正业辞了，呆在家， 管理自己的公司。

每天醒来，打扫家里，准备午餐和晚餐，洗衣服，有的没的。

其实，我更想，生个属于我们的宝宝。

我好喜欢小孩子，虽然清楚知道，从怀孕到照顾孩子，是一件不简单的事，但是，心里却有一股冲动想要有自己的孩子。

可是我也知道，我还不是婚姻里的准人选。

你说，因为我的孩子气，我的态度，我的脾气，让你不清楚甚至质疑我们是否可以永恒。

是吗，我真的是这样的吗?

我爱你，我以为就算我没有说出口，你也可以体会我对你的感情。

我，今年24岁。
我还年轻。人们说婚姻是爱情的坟墓，可是我却想去体会，虽然这机会可能不会发生在我们身上。

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06/06

Wednesday, June 06, 2012 , , 0 Comments

Finally we have our own company. Can have own projects. Even though we not yet done with the corporate identities stuff. Quite troublesome I think.

But, we managed to confirm the logo design. And follow with name card design, is the next task to do.

So I announce here, our company is called, i Think Design & Solutions.

There you go, good night world :)

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03/06

Sunday, June 03, 2012 , , 0 Comments

Tomorrow is Monday dy.
There comes the Monday blue.
But hopefully the coming interview can give me some new hopes towards work.

Ganbate :)

Yesterday, I drove my ah wek to setapak to buy a player for it.
A little bit nervous, and got some fright from the cars on road too. But my handling did improve. Happy :)

In the morning, bi helped me to change the speaker in ah wek. He switch his one to my car. And all is good dy. Nice speaker and nice player. I can use USB to listen to songs in car dy. Hehehe

And now, hunting for reverse camera and sensor ;)

I hope I can treat ah wek so well. Hope I wont scratch him anymore ;(

And special thanks to bi, for helping me all the way. From car ownership transfer to car fixing and improving stage. Really appreciate. Love ya!

Good night world. Waiting for blue to come~

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Just too naive.

Friday, June 01, 2012 , , , 0 Comments

I have never think about it. Actually I am just too naive in love. Too naive to believe if I didn't mention, he will know how much I love him. Too naive to believe that there is only love in love. Too naive to believe my love is the strongest one.

I am just too naive for you, for love and for everyone.

What I wanted is a happy month of June. Because I believe this is the month which belongs to me, because I was born in this month. Bad things used to happen on my birthday, and I don't wish it to be happened again. Can I, hope for some little things, I just hope to be happy, everything can just going fine.

Is it this call naive too?

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31/05

Thursday, May 31, 2012 0 Comments

Today is the last day in May. I am awaiting for the coming of June.

I hope that will be a happy June :)

Good night world.

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28/05

Tuesday, May 29, 2012 , 0 Comments

Just now I drive my ah wek (my car's nickname) for dinner. But accidentally scratch its front face with the bar at the entrance. Owhh, so pity. Just few days driving it only, and already adding in scars on its face and body :'( Don't worry, I will learn hard to drive you and wont let you have major injuries one :)

Okie, updates tomorrow. Good night world :)

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Little updates.

Sunday, May 27, 2012 , 0 Comments

Firstly, is a good news. I bought a car, finally. And it marks the new beginning for my future life. Meant, I need to find a new job already. Because of car, I can travel myself, so no matter need to work at where, wont have too much limitation already.

But this car maybe not a perfect car. Actually it is 16 years old. Been change for two owners before. The interior condition is not that good. Need to spend some money to repair it. But anyway, anyhow, it's my decision to buy it. I should take care of it from now on :)

Oh ya, forgot to tell you the name of my new companion, Toyota Seg AE111 Year 1996, dark blue in colour :)

All right, time to sleep, stay tuned for tomorrow's updates.

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Forgetting about blogging

Sunday, May 06, 2012 , , 0 Comments

I have seen one situation, maybe it's not to obvious to be seen.
My friends are less blogging nowadays. Ya, of course it does include me. But I am because of busy then don't have time to blog. But I think most of them just simply forget about blogging.

Yes, sure. Got new phone to play with, got new lappy to play with, got lot of works to do, etc etc.

Maybe I just one of them. Busy working, and forget my actual life. I have been thinking for so long, what I am going to do for the rest of my life?

On this current stage, I should have stable work, but in fact, I am not. I should have stable relationship as well, but in fact, it is not as stable as other people thinking of. I should have earn and save lot of money, but in fact, I do save a lot and I spent a lot too.

How to carry on if it is like that? I wonder..

I prefer a simple life. If I could, or my life makes me, I don't want to have such hactic life. Having freelance work all the day and night. Working on home, typing on keyboard, scrolling with the mouse. Really feel sick with it.

If I could, I wont take so hard on myself. I wish for a better life style which I can't achieve now.

Sigh, I hope, tomorrow will be a better day for me.

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Busy life!

Monday, April 23, 2012 0 Comments

It's been too busy for these few weeks.

I can now totally feel it by myself. With heavy workload, and I still try to be relax and happy.

I went for interview today. It's quite a good experience for me, though I don't think I will accept the offer on the end. The offer is still consider low for me and the future heavy workloads for me as well.

Maybe by staying at this current company wont bring me any troublesome. But yet, it will, because we need to move to sunway soon!

And I don't like there. Because it is far from home and mean that I might need to get a car and drive to there by myself. Soon I will need to be a totally independent girl. Nope, it is woman. ><

With hands typing on the keyboard and clicking on the mouse. I felt tired, really. I feel like want to resign from my work and focus on my freelance. Like never ending task. Funny. Hmmm.

Tired. Tired. Tired..

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Gathering.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012 , 0 Comments

It is the third day in chinese new year 2012.
Too tired, too free, too happy.

Yesterday went for gathering.
It's been 7 years, we didn't meet up.
An unfamiliar feel yet warm.

Maybe we have lesser topic to talk about.
And I have become quieter among them.
I have changed, haha.
Good or bad?

But no matter what.
I hope this kind of gathering can continue like yesterday :)
Miss you all.

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Recent updates.

Saturday, January 21, 2012 , , , 0 Comments

This is really been soo long long time I didn't drop my note here.
After some emotion break down recently, some good and bad incidents happened.

And now, I am homed :)
Preparing to have Chinese New Year in 2012, a brand new year and a Dragon year.
Hope, everything will be just fine and the luck will always follow me.

Recently, my company faced a crisis.
Should I called it as a crisis?
Because the CEOs decided to separate the companies into two.
One goes to Kelana Jaya, outsourcing projects as their main job.
One stay at here, doing with merchants acquiring stuff.
But with a new CEO managing all the stuff here.

We don't have so called, Management people, HR department, Tech department, Finance department.
Because, they are under the another company.
Well, we were like the kids, they were like the parents.
Having divorce.

Fortunately, I still can do my own stuff, have my own responsibility.
This change, can say it doesn't affect me at all.
But, something good might happens to me (I think so).

The new CEO treats me quite well.
My colleague said he likes me.
LOL! is my first ever response.

Yes, I admitted.
He did praise about my skills in front of me.
He did mentioned that he wanted me to go for PHP training.
He did mentioned too that he was going to send me over to either Cheras or Sunway to join the development team to develop new gateway.

He is really kind a good person for me.
But for me, it is quite scary. Because I'm now directly report to him.
Hahha.

Well, just wait and see.
Most of the CEOs said the "air words".
They won't remember the promises they made before. Even just a minute before!
LOL!

My workload become heavier.
From my permanent side and also my freelance side.
Sometimes I felt sick, when doing with the HTML, CSS coding.
Because I'm dealing with it all day long!
That's also why I felt like quitting, wanna switch job, try new environment.
But somehow, I found out this is the only skill that I possessed and need me to enhance it much.
Maybe, I would be a very successful person in the future, with the skills I have!
Yes, I'm dreaming~

And now, I can start earn money, save money.
Wanna be a lady boss, own my own store.

Telling myself, keep going on!
To make your dreams come true!

Thank you for being there all the time when I need you.
Love you b :)

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