It's been so long.

Thursday, October 24, 2013 Feeling , life , thanks , wish 0 Comments

It's been so long.
So long that I didn't write a post at here. So long that I didn't express my feeling here.
Well, I think that is kind of hard. Hard for me to talk a lot about recent me and recent thing.

It's been so long.
So long since I have graduated from university and been working for 2 years plus now. So long since I forgot the way how I do my work, my assignments and projects.
Think that I have seldom place that passionate into my work now. How come?

It's been so long.
So long and it is been almost 5 years since the day we separated. So long that I almost forgot your voice and the way you sing.
I think, this is really the time for me to move on over you and the pass. Look forward.

It's been so long.
So long that I have stay at the strange place from the most familiar place of mine, my warm home. So long that I never spent more than 5 days with my family since many years ago.
I really hope that I could always be with them and make myself the one to start taking care of them from now on.

Yes, it's been so long and I'm 25 years old now.
Consider a woman and not a girl anymore.
I hope, really hope that the time can walk slowly, so that I can accompany my family more than I could now.

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Friday, March 29, 2013 Feeling , life , Love , sad , wish 0 Comments

也不知道最近是怎么了，会突然很想自己一个人，好好的反省以前的自己。
犯过了什么错，做过了什么，错过了什么，还有后悔了什么。

女人啊，总是没有办法好好的珍惜眼前的人，总是会去期待那些不可能的人。
或许我的感情缺乏安全感吧。我总是不敢再去想的太多，不要去期待那么多，因为我知道，我期待的那些梦幻，完美的感情生活，应该没有可能发生。

我知道，他和她分开了。
我心想，怎么了？好好的，怎么分开了。
然后，我笑了，当初我们分开的时候，朋友们应该也是这么想的吧。
好好的，怎么分开了？

这么多年过去了，我还是学不会原谅，原谅他当年对我做过的一切。
我还是很幼稚吧！男朋友说，放下吧，这么多年了，什么都过去了，还是朋友。
可是，对我来说，那当然已经过去了，可是我还是没有办法原谅。
当然，我现在过得很好，很开心。
我也希望他过得好。

可是我的心还是会痛，还是会恨。
不知道是为了什么。

快25岁了。已经不可以再用“女孩”这个字眼了。
心，是平静的。
其实已经没有在那么期待什么惊喜啊，特别的事情的发生。
可能，是已经习惯了吧。

我只期待着，一个肯定，一个安全感的到来。