Dear God, I knew you will always listen to me when I need you. Including this time, right?

Thank you, for always being there for me. Thank you.

Wish you were here by Avril Lavigne

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

[refrain]
And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

[refrain]

All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

[bridge]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.
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I hope I can be as brave as you are too.

All the best girl :)

I see, I heard, and I felt.

Well, somehow I can feel some of his sincerity.

Though the things that he is going to do, might not be as successful as can redeem back what he lost.

I have no much comments on it, just wishes for him :)

Coz, I believe; 只要有心去做，其实没有什么难得到你的.

I found out something

Which is quite funny for me

That is, I like to talk with my mum recently

Just like I wanted to share my things and feeling with her

Maybe you will start wondering

I am not close with my mum in the past?

Yup, I admit, I really din't be so close with my mum before

Until now, I just reliaze, I wasted so many years for not having good chat with my mum

I came from a strict family

Or maybe it is just "half-strict" family

My mum and dad wish me to have a good education background

Yet, they din't force me to follow the path that they wished

They always said, you just study till wherever you can, we will support financially, even if we cannot support, then you just come out to work

I admit, I am not a piece of "good wood" that made to be a genius in school

I don't like to study actually

If you give me stress, I can't focus at all

But I can manage to get through my primary school with really flying colors which can make my mum so proud in front of her friends

And I am not an obedient daughter

Most of the time, I made my parents angry with me

Maybe at that time, I always think of myself and neglect the financial situation that they had

During the last year in primary school

There was a trip, for all the last year students to join

I wished I can go at that moment

I told my mum, I wanted to go, I can take out my savings and joined them for the trip

Even my teacher also made a phone call to my mum to ask for permission

But my mum said, you can't go, you are too small to have trip far from your own home

I was, obviously disappointed

I couldn't do anything else, so inside my heart, I started to hate mum

So since that day, I seldom talk to my mum

Sometimes I even throw my anger against she

But she also will scold me for being ignorant and emotional

This situation last for few years

Until the day I went for form 6

Study and live in the place that I am not familiar with

You know, form 6 is really kind of stress life

I still remembered the day before first exam

I really can't stand with the stress I had

I called back home

Told my mum about it

I cried, then she said, if really don't want to study, then just come back, we go up and take back all your belongings

I felt touch at that moment

But, I didn't do so

I told myself, for mum's sake, I will carry on, no matter how tough was it

Then, I ended my form 6 life

I thought we have become closer

But it is not just so simple as I thought

I fall in love with a guy which I can't love

At that time, I thought love will overcome everything

Includes all the problems having in two families

But the truth is not

After some months being with him, he asked me to tell my mum about his existent

Because he don't want me to deceive my mum when everytime I went out with him

He wished to be existed

One day, I had the courage to tell my mum

You know what, she told me, she knew about it long time ago

She got news from it

She said he is not coming from a proper family

And I have to bear in mind that I am soon going into university and he is just a student ended form 5 and working in sg

There was gap between me and him

She asked me to think wise and said she cannot accept

I cried, I don't think education background do make a big difference between me and him

So, I can't go out whenever I liked that time

Because my mum don't want me to meet up with him

We were getting far from each other

More problems happened between us

I still remembered, he told me, every problem can be solve as long as we have love and faith in each other

But he lied.

Due to one misunderstood

He left me, without any proper reason stated and break up through a sms

I am too naive to believe in him

and love that time.

Soon, I get into university

and met my dear

After about half year, I told my mum about dear

She has no more objection with it

She said, think wise, you can still have other better choice

I smiled, she finally believes that I have grown up.

I start to restructure

What my mum said before

Travel during primary school, was really not a benefit for me

because I was too young to recognize all the travel locations

and just waste the money because of wanted to join with friends

I felt lucky now, I didn't spend the money for the trip :)

She forced me not to meet with my ex-bf

because of the education background and etc

I hate her for being unreasonable

Now I understand, what she did for me is good

Now I only understand her intention

Therefore I met my dear now :)

I felt guilty, all the time

When I back home, mum ride motor and came to pick me

She has poor eyesight, hardly to see

When the time at home, I saw her white hairs

Is getting many, but hairs is getting lesser

She has grew old

So now, I will talk more with her

Share with her my things

Keep she updating with my status

Cherish the time for being with her

I wanna share some of my thoughts here

I think it will be more on love :)

I always share about love, my view towards love

Sometime it may not always be right

Because different people will have different view against love

And then, some may not agree with me, some might

Some said my words towards love are so true

Actually I don't know what is really been spoken from me

I seldom go and search for quotes that make sense and reflect well on love

Because I believe different people will have different understanding

For me, Love is not just about saying, but how you are work on it

Don't be afraid to fail, you never know what you will get when you are fail, maybe it is a good thing waiting for you?

Try it, be brave :)

We are going for three years

Anything to say?

To my love?

Well, I want to say

It is very lucky to have you, William to be my boyfriend

I always think that maybe we are not made to be together

We will quarrel, we will have different opinions

But we did make it along these time

Thanks for your patient, your understanding, your care and your love

Remember our dreams and target :)

We can do it, we will fight for it together :)

And I will always love you.

地球每天在转，24小时在扣了工作的时间和睡觉的时间

就真的所剩无几了

最近，身旁的朋友都有不同的遭遇

当然也包括我自己

朋友，有分的，有合的，有争吵的

其实当他们找上我们的时候

很多时候，我们都只是爱莫能助

选择聆听，我们是帮不上任何忙的

听着一堆抱怨，一堆数落的言语，一堆的不舍

我发现，其实要从爱转变成恨，是很简单的

不要怨恨，因为那只会让你更记得他/她

会更加难受

恋爱时，你可以找到无数的理由来爱一个人

当反目时，你只需要一个概念-恨，就足以摧毁那爱的感觉

人是一种记仇的动物

记得怨，记得恨，可是忘了爱

女人，视野小；

在爱情里，往往看到的，只有自己和对方

把视野放远，其实他不是唯一，不要变得自私了，不爱自己了

男人，视野大；

在爱情里，总是觉得理所当然，不够细心

当一段感情逝去，请放小视野

其实你对爱情的付出也不过如此，当初的热情哪去了？

火星和金星，是2个很与众不同的星球

Hehe, can see?

That is an email from Nuffnang

Saying that I have been rewarded with four free movie tickets from TGV

For my birthday present

So happy larr

An early Birthday present at this year :)

So tomorrow my dear want to go and help me to pick up these tickets

Hope we can enjoy very much while watching movie that is F.O.C!

Thanks Nuffnang!

A while later, the final result will soon come out

Most of the people said

There is no much special feeling of getting result now

Hmm

But I still feel a bit nervous and worry

Maybe is because I felt like I am not done very well in the final exam

Just pray

I will have result that is above average

Don't drop my CGPA~~

Ended my interview session by 230pm

Wow, this interview is different

From the previous interviews that I have been

Two ppl are interviewing me

Filling up the forms with many Qs

Commenting on my artworks

A lot of Qssssss~

And finally reached the topic of "salary"

Well, I knew it is really a bit too high of my expected salary

I rather you cut it, better than no hire me

>.<

Rm1800, after probation, increment on salary base on performance

Hmmm, I think I will accept it

Try something new, in case this company is doing something that are standard and good quality

I can learn much from them

But, I am still considering

Haizzz..

Okie, don't hesitate to take this offer!

After some days then I will accept it by replying email^^

It is the first time that I had quite number of interviews

The first one, the co-founder's expectation was too high, yet I can't achieve it

So he gave up on me, even a reject phone call also don't have

Zzzzz

The second one, actually I have quite interest with it

Video editing, in house production

Maybe I can't learn more from them

And the salary is really too low for me to survive

So I gave up on it

Today, is the third one

Maybe I have get used to interview now

So I won't feel any nervous anymore

Just take it easy

If they like you, and the salary is acceptable

Just take it!

Don't want interview anymore >.<

Ya, I want to mention here, maybe recently you are that busy for not reading my blog

But one day you will see this

Dear, really thanks that you have been fetching me go for interview all the time

Fetching me back and go to UKM

Fetching go for lunch and dinner and shopping

I don't appreciate this in the past

You scarified a lot for me, now I knew, won't it be too late?

I will be happy to be with you

No more angry for you..

Suppose I am now revising for my exam tmr

But.. Really don't have any nice mood to do revision at this time

Haiz, how come lerr?

Last semester for me and yet I am going to end it with bad result?

I don't want~!

But I can't control myself to concentrate on my revision

Humpppp

Okie, but day after tmr, I am going to have my second interview

In Ampang, and this time I will be going by my own

Feel quite a bit nervous and scare

Coz my dear will be one who will fetch me and accompany me all the time I go anywhere

Okie, tell myself, it's time to be independent

^^

It's a video editor job, quite interesting, and I want to try something new for my very first job :)

I hope I can get this job larr

Pray ;)

Yeah, I am here again, blogging..

But, you can't blame me

I was so boring in room, facing the thick text book

Memorizing the content

That's really... Yuck!

And my dear was going to have good dinner in PJ

Yet I am here eating my maggie cup and coffee and biscuits as my dinner T.T

Sad nia.......

And I am counting down the days to come

Friday~ Friday~ Friday~

Faster come~~~~

I am going nuts, don't doubt it >.<

..........

Okie, cut the crap

Just now at the noon, I listed some of my little wishes

Hehe, quite a lot, so not consider as "little"

1. Go for travel (within Malaysia/Overseas)

2. Sponsor my parents go for travel

3. Buy myself a smartphone, of course Samsung Galaxy S!

4. Take some classes (perhaps to fill up my time)

5. Get myself a car! I really feel like needing it badly >.<

6. Brush up my driving skills

7. Get a good job

8. Be independent, tough and brave (all the time)

Yeah, finished listing

But I don't know when I can just completed them all

But I will try my best^^

Bless me