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Unreachable.

Today, at office, my colleague was playing Jay's songs.
Everytime I listen to Jay's songs, I will think about him.
We share the same memory with Jay's songs.
Sometimes, I still wish to know how is he, even though I have made up my mind that I will forget him and never to get in touch with him.
He is a memory for me. Just like the way he treated me.

I used to be proud when people is asking me, how long you been together with your bf?
How you two will get together? What is the secret of how you two been so sweet all the while?
But, not now anymore.

It's not because I have lose faith with our love.
It's not because I don't love him or he don't love me anymore.
Just that, people only see the appearance, what is actually happen between us, they don't even know it.

I always envy people who gets married, being proposed in a very romantic and sweet way.
I will wish this would happen on me as well, one day, maybe we still together.

To be sincere, I can hardly imagine my future.
I don't know what I will do, who I will become and so many things.
I don't even dare to think about it.
It's like, beautiful things are just too far to reach for me.
Like, unreachable.
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I thought I could have my own time for resting and doing own stuff after handing in my resignation letter.
But I was wrong, I am still having busy like hell life now.
I think I will going crazy if continue doing projects non-stop like this.

Everytime repeating the same coding, same structure, same word, same layout..
Really feel like, aih, I don't know how to describe it anymore.

I wish my job can cover my expenses, eventhough I think it might cover almost everything,
but still need to do extra, so that I can live my life even better than this.

Our life is, we can't do anything if without money on hand.
So realistic.

Yet, I should be proud with my job.
I can win recognition from my boss, my job provider, my friends.
Feeling good when they praise on me and my work :)
That might comfort my heart well.

It's been one year working in KL.
How's my life?
I can say, just like usual.
We didn't do any special outing, we watch movie once in a couple week.
I did online shopping instead of going out to shopping mall.
It prove, I couldn't live without my pc now.
So miserable. T.T

Ok, well, I am quite look forward for my next job and working environment,
eventhough I might be having busy life after that.
Hopefully I can do as what I can to impress my future boss :)

God bless me and you all as well :)
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19 July.

I think I should be happy.
Got much job on hand, upcoming one, rushing one, completed one.
I really should feel happy for it.
For the greatness that God brought for me.
Yet, felt tired.

Today was the first time, client called me and rush for me.
Haha, really the very first time. Because I could say, most of the time I will complete the task on time.
Just, everytime after work, just don't feel like working anymore.
Wish to take break, watch drama, facebook-ing etc.
Just do whatever I want.
But, I couldn't lahh.

Did you notice? I just changed my blog skin today, in the office.
Haha, maybe I'm just too free to do so. Or, just want to free my time doing my own stuff.
Don't have much feeling to work in office. Waiting for the last day to come.

Yesterday was the premiere screening of Dark Knight Rises.
I won the tickets, but I cannot attend to it due to RCIA class.
What a pity. But luckily I gave the tickets to my colleague, and he did enjoyed a lot last night :)
And today, he brought me all the merchandise he got that night. So good!
The only one I liked the most among them is the X-mini Capsule Speaker. Most probably the most expensive one among them. LOL.
But anyway, thanks to P1, thanks to Venusbuzz :)

Yesterday class, we talked about who is God? Our Father?
A nice lesson, fulfill my curiosity towards this new religion ;)
Carry on, the day will come.
May God bless you :)
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Atmosphere.

The atmosphere here is full of down. sad. disappointment. anger. frustration.
I wish I could get out from this atmosphere as soon as possible.

Is it every boss out there is used to give dreams to their employees?
But they couldn't fulfill either one of the dreams?!
There's the disappointment of employees.

We put our effort here, yet, some can't get paid, don't have much benefits.
All is like, empty promises.

And now, I started to think and asking myself.
Why I am here? Why I chose to be here when the first decision making time?

I deserve the better working environment.
For sure, it's not here.
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Just too naive.

I have never think about it. Actually I am just too naive in love. Too naive to believe if I didn't mention, he will know how much I love him. Too naive to believe that there is only love in love. Too naive to believe my love is the strongest one.

I am just too naive for you, for love and for everyone.

What I wanted is a happy month of June. Because I believe this is the month which belongs to me, because I was born in this month. Bad things used to happen on my birthday, and I don't wish it to be happened again. Can I, hope for some little things, I just hope to be happy, everything can just going fine.

Is it this call naive too?
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Forgetting about blogging

I have seen one situation, maybe it's not to obvious to be seen.
My friends are less blogging nowadays. Ya, of course it does include me. But I am because of busy then don't have time to blog. But I think most of them just simply forget about blogging.

Yes, sure. Got new phone to play with, got new lappy to play with, got lot of works to do, etc etc.

Maybe I just one of them. Busy working, and forget my actual life. I have been thinking for so long, what I am going to do for the rest of my life?

On this current stage, I should have stable work, but in fact, I am not. I should have stable relationship as well, but in fact, it is not as stable as other people thinking of. I should have earn and save lot of money, but in fact, I do save a lot and I spent a lot too.

How to carry on if it is like that? I wonder..

I prefer a simple life. If I could, or my life makes me, I don't want to have such hactic life. Having freelance work all the day and night. Working on home, typing on keyboard, scrolling with the mouse. Really feel sick with it.

If I could, I wont take so hard on myself. I wish for a better life style which I can't achieve now.

Sigh, I hope, tomorrow will be a better day for me.
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Busy life!

It's been too busy for these few weeks.

I can now totally feel it by myself. With heavy workload, and I still try to be relax and happy.

I went for interview today. It's quite a good experience for me, though I don't think I will accept the offer on the end. The offer is still consider low for me and the future heavy workloads for me as well.

Maybe by staying at this current company wont bring me any troublesome. But yet, it will, because we need to move to sunway soon!

And I don't like there. Because it is far from home and mean that I might need to get a car and drive to there by myself. Soon I will need to be a totally independent girl. Nope, it is woman. ><

With hands typing on the keyboard and clicking on the mouse. I felt tired, really. I feel like want to resign from my work and focus on my freelance. Like never ending task. Funny. Hmmm.

Tired. Tired. Tired..
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