It's been so long.
So long that I didn't write a post at here. So long that I didn't express my feeling here.
Well, I think that is kind of hard. Hard for me to talk a lot about recent me and recent thing.
It's been so long.
So long since I have graduated from university and been working for 2 years plus now. So long since I forgot the way how I do my work, my assignments and projects.
Think that I have seldom place that passionate into my work now. How come?
It's been so long.
So long and it is been almost 5 years since the day we separated. So long that I almost forgot your voice and the way you sing.
I think, this is really the time for me to move on over you and the pass. Look forward.
It's been so long.
So long that I have stay at the strange place from the most familiar place of mine, my warm home. So long that I never spent more than 5 days with my family since many years ago.
I really hope that I could always be with them and make myself the one to start taking care of them from now on.
Yes, it's been so long and I'm 25 years old now.
Consider a woman and not a girl anymore.
I hope, really hope that the time can walk slowly, so that I can accompany my family more than I could now.
Dear God, I knew you will always listen to me when I need you. Including this time, right?
Thank you, for always being there for me. Thank you.
女孩,是不是到了一定的年龄,就会想婚?
我还年轻吧,回想起当初口口声声说不想也不会早婚的我,现在却想了。
好好笑,笑这么笨的自己。
其实,我好想就结婚了,把正业辞了,呆在家, 管理自己的公司。
每天醒来,打扫家里,准备午餐和晚餐,洗衣服,有的没的。
其实,我更想,生个属于我们的宝宝。
我好喜欢小孩子,虽然清楚知道,从怀孕到照顾孩子,是一件不简单的事,但是,心里却有一股冲动想要有自己的孩子。
可是我也知道,我还不是婚姻里的准人选。
你说,因为我的孩子气,我的态度,我的脾气,让你不清楚甚至质疑我们是否可以永恒。
是吗,我真的是这样的吗?
我爱你,我以为就算我没有说出口,你也可以体会我对你的感情。
我,今年24岁。
我还年轻。人们说婚姻是爱情的坟墓,可是我却想去体会,虽然这机会可能不会发生在我们身上。
Finally we have our own company. Can have own projects. Even though we not yet done with the corporate identities stuff. Quite troublesome I think.
But, we managed to confirm the logo design. And follow with name card design, is the next task to do.
So I announce here, our company is called, i Think Design & Solutions.
There you go, good night world :)
Tomorrow is Monday dy.
There comes the Monday blue.
But hopefully the coming interview can give me some new hopes towards work.
Ganbate :)
Yesterday, I drove my ah wek to setapak to buy a player for it.
A little bit nervous, and got some fright from the cars on road too. But my handling did improve. Happy :)
In the morning, bi helped me to change the speaker in ah wek. He switch his one to my car. And all is good dy. Nice speaker and nice player. I can use USB to listen to songs in car dy. Hehehe
And now, hunting for reverse camera and sensor ;)
I hope I can treat ah wek so well. Hope I wont scratch him anymore ;(
And special thanks to bi, for helping me all the way. From car ownership transfer to car fixing and improving stage. Really appreciate. Love ya!
Good night world. Waiting for blue to come~
I have never think about it. Actually I am just too naive in love. Too naive to believe if I didn't mention, he will know how much I love him. Too naive to believe that there is only love in love. Too naive to believe my love is the strongest one.
I am just too naive for you, for love and for everyone.
What I wanted is a happy month of June. Because I believe this is the month which belongs to me, because I was born in this month. Bad things used to happen on my birthday, and I don't wish it to be happened again. Can I, hope for some little things, I just hope to be happy, everything can just going fine.
Is it this call naive too?
Today is the last day in May. I am awaiting for the coming of June.
I hope that will be a happy June :)
Good night world.
Just now I drive my ah wek (my car's nickname) for dinner. But accidentally scratch its front face with the bar at the entrance. Owhh, so pity. Just few days driving it only, and already adding in scars on its face and body :'( Don't worry, I will learn hard to drive you and wont let you have major injuries one :)
Okie, updates tomorrow. Good night world :)
Firstly, is a good news. I bought a car, finally. And it marks the new beginning for my future life. Meant, I need to find a new job already. Because of car, I can travel myself, so no matter need to work at where, wont have too much limitation already.
But this car maybe not a perfect car. Actually it is 16 years old. Been change for two owners before. The interior condition is not that good. Need to spend some money to repair it. But anyway, anyhow, it's my decision to buy it. I should take care of it from now on :)
Oh ya, forgot to tell you the name of my new companion, Toyota Seg AE111 Year 1996, dark blue in colour :)
All right, time to sleep, stay tuned for tomorrow's updates.
I have seen one situation, maybe it's not to obvious to be seen.
My friends are less blogging nowadays. Ya, of course it does include me. But I am because of busy then don't have time to blog. But I think most of them just simply forget about blogging.
Yes, sure. Got new phone to play with, got new lappy to play with, got lot of works to do, etc etc.
Maybe I just one of them. Busy working, and forget my actual life. I have been thinking for so long, what I am going to do for the rest of my life?
On this current stage, I should have stable work, but in fact, I am not. I should have stable relationship as well, but in fact, it is not as stable as other people thinking of. I should have earn and save lot of money, but in fact, I do save a lot and I spent a lot too.
How to carry on if it is like that? I wonder..
I prefer a simple life. If I could, or my life makes me, I don't want to have such hactic life. Having freelance work all the day and night. Working on home, typing on keyboard, scrolling with the mouse. Really feel sick with it.
If I could, I wont take so hard on myself. I wish for a better life style which I can't achieve now.
Sigh, I hope, tomorrow will be a better day for me.
It's been too busy for these few weeks.
I can now totally feel it by myself. With heavy workload, and I still try to be relax and happy.
I went for interview today. It's quite a good experience for me, though I don't think I will accept the offer on the end. The offer is still consider low for me and the future heavy workloads for me as well.
Maybe by staying at this current company wont bring me any troublesome. But yet, it will, because we need to move to sunway soon!
And I don't like there. Because it is far from home and mean that I might need to get a car and drive to there by myself. Soon I will need to be a totally independent girl. Nope, it is woman. ><
With hands typing on the keyboard and clicking on the mouse. I felt tired, really. I feel like want to resign from my work and focus on my freelance. Like never ending task. Funny. Hmmm.
Tired. Tired. Tired..
It is the third day in chinese new year 2012.
Too tired, too free, too happy.
Yesterday went for gathering.
It's been 7 years, we didn't meet up.
An unfamiliar feel yet warm.
Maybe we have lesser topic to talk about.
And I have become quieter among them.
I have changed, haha.
Good or bad?
But no matter what.
I hope this kind of gathering can continue like yesterday :)
Miss you all.