I will only cry when I hear this song from the radio.
It touched my heart.
Maybe is because of the lyrics, or the song itself.
It just touched my heart.
Especially when I hear it during my sad time.
I can cry out well.

Don't know been how many times, I cried in office, my working place.
Funny, isn't it?
How can a staff crying in the middle of working, so unbelievable.
But, I just did it.
Maybe, when working, I just cry out as much as I could.
That's my own space after all.

I am now on diet schedule.
Try not to eat oily stuff, food made of carbohydrate, drink lots of water, do slight exercise.
Ya, now I know, I am getting fat.
Got two layers of tires on my stomach area already :(
*sigh*

I like girls talk with my sisters.
They are not my real sisters though.
But, when in the time I am unhappy, they will still be there for me.
To cheers me up, to provide ideas, tells jokes, just want to make me happy.
Thank you to all my darling, not to mention here, but, you are the one who really make me feel comfortable with.
Thanks darling, sweetie :)

Another "cold" night, how to get it over?
I also wonder.

Gonna have long talk here these few days.
Felt like coming back to a fake life.
*sigh*

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well,...for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But..Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you 

were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend:You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s

broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me? 

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? 

You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened..

Once again, I broke down.

I don't even know how to explain, how to speak a word, how to face it.

What I wish for, is to find a place and hide myself in.

I am scare to face the reality.

Too cruel.

I know it is bad for me to find out all these, but I have to.

I have the rights to know, isn't it?

I'm not healthy.

I scare, I will just leave the world one day.

Is there anyone out there can be here for me?

When I doesn't feel like talking, feel like laugh or smile?

Anyone?

I used to laugh a lot to cover up all my sadness.

That's my life.