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It's been so long. So long that I didn't write a post at here. So long that I didn't express my feeling here. Well, I think that is kind of hard. Hard for me to talk a lot about recent me and recent thing. It's been so long. So long since I have graduated from university and been working...
也不知道最近是怎么了，会突然很想自己一个人，好好的反省以前的自己。 犯过了什么错，做过了什么，错过了什么，还有后悔了什么。 女人啊，总是没有办法好好的珍惜眼前的人，总是会去期待那些不可能的人。 或许我的感情缺乏安全感吧。我总是不敢再去想的太多，不要去期待那么多，因为我知道，我期待的那些梦幻，完美的感情生活，应该没有可能发生。 我知道，他和她分开了。 我心想，怎么了？好好的，怎么分开了。 然后，我笑了，当初我们分开的时候，朋友们应该也是这么想的吧。 好好的，怎么分开了？ 这么多年过去了，我还是学不会原谅，原谅他当年对我做过的一切。 我还是很幼稚吧！男朋友说，放下吧，这么多年了，什么都过去了，还是朋友。 可是，对我来说，那当然已经过去了，可是我还是没有办法原谅。 当然，我现在过得很好，很开心。 我也希望他过得好。 可是我的心还是会痛，还是会恨。 不知道是为了什么。 快25岁了。已经不可以再用“女孩”这个字眼了。 心，是平静的。 其实已经没有在那么期待什么惊喜啊，特别的事情的发生。 可能，是已经习惯了吧。 我只期待着，一个肯定，一个安全感的到来。...
Today, at office, my colleague was playing Jay's songs. Everytime I listen to Jay's songs, I will think about him. We share the same memory with Jay's songs. Sometimes, I still wish to know how is he, even though I have made up my mind that I will forget him and never to get in touch with him. He...
Maybe I didn't go through any situation before, because my future was set since the day I was born to this world and family. I felt weird, that I didn't react bad when the time I was treated strict by my mum. Maybe I was just too obedient already. Or just maybe I don't have the guts to react...
I thought I could have my own time for resting and doing own stuff after handing in my resignation letter. But I was wrong, I am still having busy like hell life now. I think I will going crazy if continue doing projects non-stop like this. Everytime repeating the same coding, same structure, same word, same layout.. Really feel...
我看到，有人很想把自己变得更好，比方说，变得更有钱。 为的，只是想让她回心转意。 其实，我不知道应该给什么反应才是最适当的。 我是一个，连说话都会迁就别人的人，我很少会很坚持自己的见解。 我老是对他说，Move On。 也不知道他是不是真的有听进去。 只是到现在为止，我还没有看见他真正的放下。 到底为的是什么呢？ 应该没有人知道和了解吧。 如果换作是我自己，又会怎么办？ 是不是真的很难放下？ 可是如果不放下的话，又要怎么 Move On 呢？...
Viewing my friend's photos in Facebook. She is now in New Zealand, a totally new environment for her. Yet, I feel so happy for her that she seems like adapt quite well at there. Suddenly, I feel like missing her a lot. She is one of my close friend in University. We used to go class together, meeting each...
I think I should be happy. Got much job on hand, upcoming one, rushing one, completed one. I really should feel happy for it. For the greatness that God brought for me. Yet, felt tired. Today was the first time, client called me and rush for me. Haha, really the very first time. Because I could say, most of...
It's like, finally, FINALLY I tender the letter. First time ever. Really scare and nervous. But it is really happy and relief that my colleagues are supporting me from leaving here. Yea, I am all alone here, working on my own, no one to discuss with, handle project myself, really don't like this kind of working environment. There is...
The atmosphere here is full of down. sad. disappointment. anger. frustration. I wish I could get out from this atmosphere as soon as possible. Is it every boss out there is used to give dreams to their employees? But they couldn't fulfill either one of the dreams?! There's the disappointment of employees. We put our effort here, yet, some...
